Wednesday, October 15, 2014

October 15, 2006


October 15, 2006

Dear Ethan & Ella –

Today I have been in the hospital for 75 days on bed rest.  I would stay for 75 more if it meant my babies would be born healthy.  People keep asking me how I am doing this and I don’t understand.  A mom would stand on her head for a hundred days if it meant she would help her babies.  And that is what you are making me….a mom.  I am finally going to be a mommy after years of waiting and I can’t wait!

You have been trying to speed up your arrival for the last few months.  Thank God for the doctors who caught my contractions at my regular appointment.  I never even felt them.  What would have happened if my appointment were even a day later?  They have never stopped but the doctors have slowed them down so you have time to grow and develop.  I can’t even really think about what would have happened if they hadn’t caught it and gotten them under control.  I thank God for watching over us.  Do you know that you literally have hundreds of people who are praying for you?  Their prayers are what are giving me the strength to make it another day.

The last couple of weeks have been hard for me.  I have gotten more and more uncomfortable.  I can only lie on my left and right side and that gets old 24 hours a day.  But I will do it as long as I can!  I made it to the 32-week mark and now we are aiming for 34-weeks.  It is funny I have had the same nurses the whole time I am here.  They are now getting to the point of being surprised that I am still here after they come back from their days off.  “You haven’t had those babies yet??!!”  We are hanging tough and they are all cheering for me.

Your Nana and Papa came and visited with us on their way home from Knoxville today.  My back started to hurt more and more throughout the day.  It was a really tough night.  I feel like it was one giant contraction that never lets up.  It is a constant contraction.  I am in so much pain that I have actually thrown up a few times.  Your Daddy is starting to look a little freaked out and that is not easy to do! 


I keep chanting in my head “every day in my belly is four less for you in the NICU.”  I am hanging on the best I can, babies.

Love, 
Mommy

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