What Mamas Do

Overwhelmed.  That would be the one word that accurately summarizes how I feel right now.  When I published my book in December, I thought the hard part was over.  Wrong.  So it is on Amazon now... along with a gazillion other books too.  My job now is to market the book.  If I don't do it, no one else will.  I hate to self promote.  It was one of the things I loathed about being in the business world. Yet here I am.  Facebook page.  Blog.  All trying to promote my book and me.  Goodbye Comfort Zone...

Last week I auditioned for a local show in Nashville.  It is a wonderful format where 10 women share a 5 minute monologue about motherhood.  I had been encouraged by several friends to give it a try.  I have had zero experience in theater.  The opportunity to reach so many people was just too much to pass up.  I worked tirelessly the last 6 weeks perfecting my monologue.  I wrote, practiced, cut, re-wrote.  Do you know how hard it is to keep something to 5 minutes when you wrote an entire book?Auf Wiedersehen Comfort Zone...

Saturday I practiced one final time with my iPhone propped up on my kitchen counter with a Clorox wipe holding it up.  I walked out of my house confident that it was the best to my ability.  At the audition, I sat in a room waiting my turn with a couple of people who were in the theater business.  This was old hat to them.  After wishing one of them luck, I learned very quickly that you really are supposed to say "Break a leg!!!"  (You would have thought I had kicked her in the tummy!!)  I gave myself a gigantic pep talk in my head and prayed like crazy before I auditioned.  I stood in a room and gave it my best while trying to disguise my shaking hands.  Arrivederci Comfort Zone ...

After a long few days of waiting, I found out today that I wasn't selected.  It wasn't a huge surprise.  Close to 100 people auditioned and they only chose 10.  Rejection still stings.  I have a long car drive tomorrow to Texas where I can really ponder it and maybe I will have a future blog post with all my life lessons and pontifications.  Not today.

Today I decided that I cannot keep it to myself.  Maybe it isn't meant to help someone just in Nashville.  Maybe it is meant for someone in Seattle.  Baltimore.  Australia.  San Fran Tokyo (aka - San Antonio as my daughter called it).  So here it is.  I am not just sharing it with Nashville.  I am sharing it with the world.  Au Revoir Comfort Zone ...

A baby in each arm ...

This monologue was just a small taste of my story in "Full Heart Empty Womb:  How I Survived Infertility ... Twice".  To learn more or buy your copy, go to:
www.amazon.com/dp/1503370879